Somewhere over the rainbow
A rainbow appeared on my last day at work. It was a beautiful sight to see, reaching boldly between the grey clouds after a lovely evening. It reminded me of the lyrics from the Katy Perry song Firework…
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time, you'll know
It perfectly sums up where I feel I am in my life. I’m about to go on this brand new adventure which I will be writing about as it unfolds - I committed to the two week acting course I spoke about in my earlier piece The push and pull of wanting to be creative and I feel like a brand new path is about to unwind.
I feel all sorts of emotions have been crashing into each in the lead up to this and it really feels like a lot is going to change, even if it’s small things or even my perspective of life or my attitude towards things. I feel exhilarated and overwhelmed at the same time, my body and emotions don’t know what to do with themselves!
I also find that when I am going through certain things sometimes I have an internal soundtrack running in the background of my mind. A song pops into my head and it seems to correlate to how I am feeling and match my emotions.
It’s like when you go through a phase of constantly playing one song over and over again in a short space of time. Like at the beginning of this year I seemed to play and listen to Flowers by Miley Cyrus a million times which really matched where I was at that moment in time.
Fast forward a few months and I don’t seem to play it as often, it’s almost if it’s done it’s job and now I’ve moved onto another song or piece of music that fits my needs. Hence the replaying of Firework which seems to be my current internal soundtrack.
You grow and evolve and your journey and needs expand and contract and you never know where you’ll end up. It’s exciting and it’s made me realise you are capable of anything you set your mind to. As one very wise person wrote to me ‘life is like a flamingo, you have to stand on one leg and make it work’.
So here I go into the unknown with an open heart and mind.